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A song that took 8 years to capture.

Firstly! Hello! Sorry it’s taken me so long, I was finishing this album and hoarding a library of my own music like a small goblin, unsure of what would make it and which songs would be left behind. I guess, thanks to this substack I don’t have to choose so finitely any longer.

I found a video of me singing this song in 2017, the context of it then was my parents and both my grandparents divorce. I’d grown up in two separate environments where I was witness to the demise of a marriage, one quiet dissolution, the other an explosion that left the embers of a whole new chapter, for my Mother and I to emerge from. When I was singing the lyrics back then, I was putting myself in her shoes, less so my own.

‘I remember when you’d rush home, but now you stay late and I wait all alone’

When my manager reminded me about the song, about a year ago now, it was a bit of an epiphany. I’d been in the dirt you see, searching for the roots of my younger self that I felt I had lost sight of in my own relationship. I was trying to find the threads of her, the person I was singing that song ten years ago. I was struggling to finish the record, to summarise this huge leap of growth and experience, and then I thought… what better way to do that than to capture a song from then, as the woman I am now?

To celebrate it coming out, I am inviting you to come on a journey of reflection. You can share your own stories in a voicemail I have set up, or simply write me a note. Either way, here is the earliest demo I could find, that didn’t make it to the ‘big’ studio but cemented itself into my life

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